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[ kogami, in all of his calculations, had unfortunately not taken into account the anxieties of a small woodland animal. he's reading up on one of the recipes on his tablet when he hears the distressed cries, the loud, peeping little shrieks that he didn't actually know it was possible for rabbits to make.

startled, he immediately heads out of the kitchen to see the bunny in the living room, shrieking his little heart out. ]

Jyuto! Jyuto -- hey, hey.

[ oh, he must be so stressed and disoriented. kogami picks him up now, cradling him to his chest. ]

It's okay, I'm here, I'm here.

[ Jyuto’s crying only starts to dwindle once Kogami’s swept him up in his arms, because at first he doesn’t even register that he’s being aided. The heavy fear, the nightmarish thought of Kogami suddenly disappearing on him starts to ease, but his rabbit heart is beating hard and fast, threatening to leap out his throat. He doesn’t know how he feels in that moment— it’s many things at once, like relief, anger. His shock is curbed and he burrows deep into the space between Kogami’s bicep and side, breathing in the scent of him as he tries to calm himself down. What was that? He thought he might die. ]

[ something's wrong. his rabbit seems to be caught up in his panic and distress, and when he burrows in kogami can feel the trembling -- and this time it's not for show, it's real. he holds him steadily, crooning low and quiet as he gently rubs his ears, trying to soothe him.

he gets it -- kogami had been caught up in the nature of the wolf when he became one, and the same must be happening to jyuto, too, and he continues to hold him. apologetic, he murmurs, lips pressing against his ears. ]

I'm sorry. I was just here making dinner. Are you okay?

[ How did it even come to this? The fact that instinctually his fear would peak to those levels is absolutely astonishing. Jyuto stays buried, trying to sift through his feelings and find answers in the darkness of Kogami's arm. The world around him is slowing down. He takes longer, consciously deep breaths. They're even, and thankfully his human brain can help his peanut-sized rabbit one manage his physical reactions. When he looks back up at Kogami, he looks so tired. It's like a year has passed between the moment they were napping together and now. Innocent, yes... it isn't quite Kogami's fault, but somehow Jyuto feels frustrated that he's been reduced to a creature so frail and needy. He doesn't know what to make of the emotions he feels in this body. Because while they're definitely his, they're too much.

Jyuto nudges his head under Kogami's other hand, huffing. He doesn't know how they'll move past this moment. Despite demanding physical reaffirmation that he's here with him, Jyuto makes sure to nip Kogami's wrist when its near enough. That's for causing him to panic. Don't go anywhere, you mother fucker. There's so much that Jyuto wants to say to you, and the thought of not being able to say it is.... ]

Ah, you're nippy --

[ yes, he definitely felt that one. and while he isn't privy to the inner workings of jyubunny's brain, he feels like he can suss out just a touch of impatient embarrassment, of a sulky settling but also an odd trace of affection. he can feel him calm down, and kogami takes him over to the counter where he's set up the tablet for the recipe, and where he had been patiently peeling an apple halfway.

lightly setting him down to test the waters, he looks down at the inside of his wrist where jyuto nips, smiling before he starts to stroke him again, head right down to the little bobtail, gently tugging to tease and distract him from the earlier meltdown. ]

I was thinking of cutting you an apple today. What do you think? Or are you still on the grape train?

[ Serves Kogami right. Satisfied by the damage he's inflicted and how Kogami's acknowledged it, Jyuto sits down on his butt, closing his eyes only when he is stroked from head to tail. He chirps in his chest a little, nose wiggling and then feels the tug on his tail. If he were human, this would be perverted. Jyuto's eyes widen and he looks at Kogami like he's surprised his tail is being touched. The little ball wiggles in Kogami's fingers, and Jyuto tries to turn his rabbit ass away, scooting along the table sideways and playfully swatting Kogami's forearm.

Ah, but there was a question asked, wasn't there? Jyuto looks at the apples sitting on the countertop, deliberating. Half of him expects Kogami to reach for his tail again, and he's ready to dash away if he sees movement coming for it, but.

He taps in the motion of the apples. They sound like a good contrast. He already had a grape earlier today, and since he had Kogami pick him up kiwis and pears already at the grocery store, he thinks pears and apples should compliment each other nicely. Similar texture, different flavor... ]

[ how adorable, jyuto doesn't like his tail being gently tugged! kogami can't help but grin when he sees jyuto scoot and swat at him, and yes, he's trying to reach for it again, knowing that his bunny isn't being entirely serious about not wanting him there.

he teases at the little ball of fluff again, but then takes the apple that he taps to prepare to cut it up into slices that jyuto can hold and eat between his tiny paws. ]

Oh, are you shy? I thought your tail liked me a lot.

[ Kogami knows that Jyuto isn't shy. It's why even if he's posed like he's going to avoid another tail tweaking, he doesn't. He just submits to it, because drawing an insincere scene out is more effort than it's worth. It doesn't feel bad, either; just invasive. Even so, Kogami knows him inside and out by this point, so there isn't much point in playing coy with him. Still, that cocky tone of voice...

But denying his claims will only feed how right Kogami actually is. Jyuto flattens his ears, sliding the apples slices closer to himself once they're cut, thin and small. He's careful to avoid the knife. He thinks about how Kogami's done so much for him today, even having been teasing or spooked. Jyuto wants to thank him, when this is over. His head inclines, wondering how he should convey this, but without words, it's difficult. Munching on an apple piece, Jyuto hops closer to Kogami and sits up tall. He opens his front legs like he wants to be held again. He doesn't blink, he just hopes Kogami will pick him up or set him on his shoulder. Anything to be closer, he thought he lost him— ]

[ kogami smoothly picks him up when jyuto makes the universal gesture of "up, please", urging the bunny to nestle into his shoulder while he turns his head to press a soft kiss between his ears.

it doesn't escape his notice that jyuto needs to be soothed, even as he steals an apple slice for himself, offering the remaining piece he had bitten off to him with a small smile. ]

You seem to be adjusting pretty well to being a rabbit.

[ Jyuto's glad Kogami lifts him. He's glad that he kisses him. He always pulls through when things actually matter, despite earlier this morning when Jyuto had demanded it simply because he'd felt entitled to it during breakfast. Now is different, though. He's come off of his animalistic panic attack, but he desires physical comfort and doesn't want to be away from him until he's human again with enough sanity to feel like he can leave and not fear Kogami disappearing. He's taken him for granted.

Yes, he's adjusted to being a rabbit well, but that's because Kogami's figured out how to read what it is Jyuto wants to covey, language present or not. Jyuto accepts the apple piece, crispy chewing near Kogami's ear. When he swallows, he nuzzles against the dip of skin beneath the lobe, cold nose wiggling and rabbit tongue giving him a meaningful little lick. Jyuto audibly takes a deep breath, closes his eyes and begins to smear his chin all over the side of Kogami's neck and shoulder— it's instinctive, and it brings him some form of comfort though he doesn't quite understand why. It isn't quite cuddling, but? Jyuto wonders if becoming a rabbit has made him inherently more cuddly... he doesn't know. Even without knowing, he continues to drag and drag his chin, across every surface of Kogami that's within range of doing so. ]

[ jyuto is -- he's definitely doing something. he can feel the bunny rub his chin on his bare skin, again and again like it's a biological soothing imperative. it's comforting, and perhaps it's even more comforting for jyuto as a bunny to be doing these things, and he strokes his back, nuzzling into his furry side from time to time. ]

Are you okay?

[ they've reached an easy understanding together, despite the little hiccups this morning -- more deliberate than anything else, because a bratty jyuto is adorable, but a frustrated one is even more endearing. there's something weirdly soothing about having a rabbit chew right next to your ear, and as he feeds him another piece and takes some for himself, he gently rubs his tail to get jyuto's attention. ]

What're you doing, hmm?

[ Jyuto feels compelled to keep doing it, and only stops because his tail is being pet. The fur there is sensitive. Lifting his head from the motion, he looks up at Kogami, one rabbit ear twitching. He's very still. Yes, he's okay, but... what is he doing? Hell, if he knows. Jyuto manages to do a very human gesture with his front legs, holding them out and managing to shrug at Kogami before wobbling and falling forward on Kogami's shoulde. He chews his apple slice in complacent silence. The urge to keep chinning is strong. He only manages to resist the instinct until his apple is swallowed, and then? It's back to the chin smearing. Rub, rub, rub... ah, bliss. ]

[ did jyuto just shrug at him?

kogami blinks, then watches him languidly going back to eating his apple like he didn't just rub himself on him. but then again, it looks like he's fine. so, kogami settles and makes a fruit bowl for himself, bringing it and his chinning bunny into the living room where he gets to sit and eat.

he's nosing along jyuto's furry ears now, nuzzling him. ]

I've cut up some pear, too.

[ he offers jyuto a tiny cube, but this time it's between his lips. ]

[ He sure did, Kogami. And he’s still chinning him all the way back to the living room, a mere vessel and slave to bunny rabbit instinct that he doesn’t understand. All he knows is that doing this feels emotionally satisfying, and when he thinks Kogami smells enough like him (beyond the ever present scent of cigarettes), he’s able to look back to Kogami who noses him in turn.

He doesn’t expect pear offered to him this way. He hadn’t noticed them prepared earlier, likely because he’d been too busy crying and panicking in the living room before. His pink nose sniffs curiously at the cube of pear and Jyuto eases a little closer. It’s sweet that Kogami doesn’t mind kissing a rabbit on the mouth— moments like these are as close as he can feel to human while in this form.

Careful not to accidentally catch the skin of his lip, Jyuto nibbles away at some of the pear, crunching on the bite as he pulls away to watch him after being fed. But just when Kogami might start to think Jyuto is cute… the rabbit shoves and nudges his head forward and proceeds to smear his chin all over Kogami’s jaw and cheek now?! ]

[ kogami is endeared by how delicately his bunny is doing this, and he's smiling, trusting that those dangerous looking little teeth aren't going to hurt him. and sure enough, it doesn't. jyuto's happily chewing away, and he's nosing between his ears fondly before being observed.

look at him, he's so cute, fluffy and plump with his little ears, but then -- oh, oh...

... is he -- ]

Are you rubbing pear juice on me?

[ Well, technically yes. It isn't his intent, Kogami, but he isn't NOT rubbing pear juice on your face. As he comes to realize that's what's happening, he stifles the chinning habit and abruptly stops himself from continuing, guiltily slurping the rest of his pear cube into his mouth to finish it off. Crunch, crunch... ah. Awkward. That must be starting to get annoying.

He looks down, chubby cheeks frowning. He wish he had an explanation from Kogami, but he doesn't.
And even if he did, it isn't as if he'd be able to tell him. ]

[ ah, is jyuto sulking? kogami catches the barest glimpse of his rabbit frowning, and he reaches a finger to gently wipe what's left of the juice from his mouth before he gives him a soft kiss, rubbing his finger under his chin affectionately. ]

I didn't say you should stop.

[ he says gently, nuzzling against him. ] But you're not in any distress, are you?

[ he's already reaching for his phone to try to figure out why jyuto is rubbing his chin on him so much... ]

[ It feels good being stroked under his chin and Jyuto lifts his head, closing his eyes and letting Kogami nuzzle into him. They've been awfully cuddly, haven't they? Not that Kogami can be blamed. Jyuto's been transformed into a fluffy critter after all, and it takes some kind of person, a robot maybe, to resist the charm of a bunny. When Kogami draws away, Jyuto shakes his head to confirm that he doesn't think he's distressed by anything.

Kogami reaching for his phone catches his attention. Two long ears lean forward, attentive and curious to know the answer himself. He's going to look it up, most likely— the reason Jyuto keeps feeling like he has to rub his chin on him. As Kogami collects his communicator in his hand, Jyuto's little face sloooowly peers into the corner of his peripherals, looking down at the screen with anticipation in his eyes. ]

[ look at that tiny little face clamoring close to take a look. an interested little bunny jyuto is incredibly, heartwarmingly adorable, and kogami can't help but chuckle as he shares the screen with him while he scrolls.

he gives that chubby little rabbit cheek a soft kiss before he pauses the scrolling, and it reads:

Rabbits have a unique way of showing many emotions, and chinning is one of them. Their chin has special scent glands on it, so they mark their territory with their chins. Similar to pet cats rubbing against your leg, if your pet rabbit places their chin on your shoulder or arm, they are claiming you as theirs.

... so.

he looks from the screen to his rabbit: ]

So that's what it is.

[ Jyuto is just as curious until he's not. The enlightening few sentences tell him more than he'd ever known about rabbit territorialism, and he's momentarily stuck how he'd been, unmoving and digesting the text letter by letter. He feels so put on the spot when Kogami looks at him, and he looks to the side, averting eye contact because it's awkward to admit. Jyuto's still coming to terms with whatever feelings he's developed, and even though he understands that there are certain things that Kogami does that set him off emotionally (though it certainly seems as if being a rabbit has made him more impulsive, re: Jeanine), he can't say why he wants to act the way he does other than just because. All this article confirms is that he feels like Kogami is his in some shape or form, and that's... probably accurate. Probably a little stupid, too. ]

...
[ This brings out vulnerability that's uncharacteristic, so Jyuto turns and hops out of Kogami's arms and starts wiping his face so that he seems too preoccupied for judgement. Spare him... ]

[ oh, bunny.

kogami doesn't need jyuto to speak to know that he's embarrassed about this, and when things start to fall in place for him, he can't help but smile before he reaches over, gently picks him up in his hands and sets him on his lap.

he leans down now, pressing a soft kiss to the top of his head as he considers the ramifications of that, of how possessive and territorial jyuto must be. and honestly? he doesn't really mind.

and really, it's not stupid. ]

I liked it, you know. It must've been really upsetting for you, then. Just now.

[ Upsetting? He doesn't know. It's certainly insightful, but it isn't as if he doesn't stand alone in the shower thinking about it sometimes. If it doesn't bother Kogami, then it's as good as dropped. His paws stop matting down his fur, giving away that it really had just been an attempt to deflect any discomfort it might bring Kogami. He's curious about which part of it Kogami likes, because if he doesn't get a hold on it quickly, it may spiral beyond all hope of controlling.

Then again, Kogami's picking him up and setting him down in his lap when he tries to pull away. He kisses his head. This isn't the sort of thing someone does when they're afraid of where things may be headed. He doesn't at all seem smothered, the way Jyuto projects him to be when he goes home to overanalyze his relationships in Prismatica, and what people expect of one another living here.

He turns in Kogami's arms, standing up in his lap and putting his front paws on his chest. He sniffs him out like he wants him to elaborate— ]

[ kogami is getting the hang of those unspoken gestures, and this time it definitely isn't because jyuto wants to be carried. no, he's curious, seeking out more of what kogami has to give. the thing is, he's never expected his relationship with jyuto to move forward this quickly this intense, or the depth of his feelings for him.

jyuto is, in every sense of the word, the man who understands him, who's wild and ruthless and kind all at once, and kogami sees in him a precious kindred. and more than that; the more time he spends with him, the more he wants to be with him. what does that mean, in prismatica's context? in the people he had come to care for?

he looks down at him thoughtfully, rubbing the base of his furry ears as he noses against him, exhaling a soft sigh. ]

What do you want to know, Jyuto? This is new to me, you know.

[ Oh? Is this nervousness Jyuto is sensing? It's his time to be on the spot now, isn't it! Jyuto doesn't feel quite so tyrannical about getting answers, anymore. He thinks he knows what Kogami may be trying to say, and this isn't a conversation they should try and have while he's a bunny rabbit. He'll save it for another day, when it feels more right. When he can tell him word for word properly and describe how his feelings have bloomed. That willingness to straighten things out is more than enough to reaffirm Jyuto's concerns.

Teasing him, Jyuto pushes on the tip of Kogami's nose like it's a button to be pressed. He chins Kogami's face one last time and then settles into a lazy loaf on his chest, content with the answer of Kogami's response alone. ]

[ it might definitely be nervousness kogami is sensing, and the growing knowledge that it would hurt much, much worse if he loses jyuto. and he doesn't know what to do about that -- all of that time traveling, moving from place to place and never long enough to form bonds again, and here he is with this man who's slowly becoming more and more important to him.

he looks surprised when his nose is pushed with that tiny soft paw, and when he flops onto his chest, comfortable and trusting, kogami buries his nose in the fur of his stomach, closing his eyes.

he cares, and deeply, and it will cost him dearly when he loses him one day.

nonetheless, he simply says: ]

Mm. Did that make you happy? [ his hands come to rub those delicate little toe beans on his paws now. ]

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